Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Augustana - Stars & Boulevards

Wait, dear
A white horse is walking down my street here
Your words are creeping at my feet I fear
That sunrise will come too soon and you'll disappear
To the haze of a city and yourself
Oh no...

Look out
They're coming after us with big guns
They're only going to tell you all the bad things I've done
And even if the words they say aren't true they've won
Now I'm left here dying in the sun
Oh...

Seems like I'm always on my own...
Seems like I'm never coming home
Seems like I'm always on my own...
All the stars and boulevards
Ain't close enough for you

Late nights
Won't do me justice
When I drink
Just get so damn depressed
And it's, it's not like
I ain't trying to get over you
It's just hard to look at all the
Seasons pass me all the time
And I said

Oh...
Seems like I'm always on my own...
Seems like I'm never coming home...
Seems like I'm always on my own...
All the stars and boulevards
Ain't close enough for you

One last
Phone call from you
It wouldn't hurt much
I'd just like to hear your voice
And pretend to touch
Any inch of you that hasn’t
Said it all or read it all..
I sung my life away
And I say..

Oh...
Seems like I'm always on my own...
Seems like I'm never coming home
Seems like I'm always on my own...
All the stars and boulevards
Aren't close enough for you
(Seem like I'm always on my own)
All the stars and boulevards
Aren't close enough for you
(Seem like I'm never coming home)
All the stars and boulevards
Aren't close enough for you
(Seem like I'm always on my own)
All the stars and boulevards
Aren't close enough for you

haha..seems like i'm augustana mad huh..but this song's so so so nice tooo. haven't been able to get myself down to mugging for my prelims. yepp. even though it's like less than 2 weeks away. there doesn't seem to be any sense of urgency. yeah i'm scared. but it just ends there. seems like my sensory and motor neurones are working but not my effectors. ha. teachers day celebration tomorrow. gonna pon aj..as usual..and meet sam in the morning. oh well..come to think of it..if not for the fact that i'm gonna meet her..i'm probably not gonna pon school. anyway it gives me something to do. not to mention i haven't seen her in quite a while.

finished this book a few days ago. 'the memory of running'. it left me speechless..and sorta thoughtless. cause it makes me think and feel so much that suddenly i don't know what to think or feel. going on the journey with smithson ide to rediscover his past and memories of his elder sister..his journey back to life..to living once again..and just to experience him waking up and reliving everything is just so..gosh. haha. after reading the kite runner..i'm kinda hooked onto this kinda books. about life and all that crap. why? i don't know. perhaps i just want something, or somebody, to tell me what life is about. it's a kind of reassurance. that ultimately u'll have some kinda realization.

u know..i realize if there's one thing i'm good at, that's running away. be it consciously or unconsciously. i run away. whether it's by rationalizing or intellectualizing. by telling myself it's a fact. period. the story ends there. as muh as i know it doesn't, as much as i know there are more than facts involved. but i don't give a damn. or rather, i don't want to. yeah i know. everyone runs away. perhaps. there are just so many things i don't wanna deal with. and i don't know why i'm saying all these either.

ha. enjoy the halfday tomorrow. and for those mugging for prelims..good luck. that's including myself.

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