Thursday, July 27, 2006

ok so it's been a loooong loooong time. meanwhile..i've gotten back my mid years. BEBE. ha. yes yes..tonnes of people are telling me that that's quite a good grade while tonnes of people are asking me why is my results so unbalanced. yeah. right. as if i'll know why. all of a sudden i feel like there's no time life. it's the first time in my life i felt like that. weeks just zoom past me. yeah i certainly don't look like i'm stressed. just like a thief'll look like one. i'm trying to be calm..take 1 step at a time..and all that shit. but hell it isn't working. and i'm so tired. day in day out i just feel so exhausted. i know. i don't stay up all that late. i don't do that much work. but i still feel so fatigued. i've got a maths test tomorrow. trigo and vectors. yeah it's just 2 chapters but it's freaking me out. looking at how they download questions and do them is freaking me out too. man..this is unprecedented.
u know..all of a sudden i feel so far away from xin jie. i don't know why. i felt so peripheral, like wat selina was saying, today. was with sarah tham..xin jie..and xin jie's friend. just felt like i was..marginalized. i've no idea what they were talking about, and i don't have anything witty to say..almost all of the time, i'm not interesting..blah blah blah. i shouldn't kick a big fuss out of it. but it just bothers me. oh well.
and i'm sick of alison. i'm sick of his attitude. if he's not gonna say anything, he can just go to hell.
oh well..tell myself i can do it..i can do it..i can get at least 3 As..
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.

"somewhere in this darkness i'm alive but i'm alone. part of me is fighting this. part of me is gone."

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ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
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