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.opalescent.
me.myself.me
love
my life.
my world. my thoughts.
my wishes. my hopes. my dreams.
my love.
ser xing.
13/8/1988<.br>
ajc.
_tumbling into her thoughts.
drowning her tears in a bottomless cup of coffee.
memories are all tied in knots.
who is going to save her._
maple leaves.
boxes.
pigs.
link.linkie.link
.past.
[x]weini.
[x]qinghao.
[x]alison.
[x]edwin.
[x]sandy.
[x]yee shian.
[x]kang wei.
[x]yee wen.
[x]pei jun.
[x]celeste.
[x]khee onn.
[x]mei yi.
[x]evon.
[x]xue ting.
[x]asmond.
[x]kok wei.
[x]daniel.
[x]ser chuan.
[x]jason.
[x]joyce.
[x]yi wen.
[x]yong chuen.
[x]jenna.
[x]lucia.
[x]oli.
[x]sarah.
[x]yao hui.
[x]jie sin.
[x]kang li.
[x]pei qi.
[x]wei fang.
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tag.tag.taggie.
.life.story.
Friday, March 17, 2006
ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
@ |1:19 pm|
during the st john camp..it was weird. it's weird seeing all those students around..sec 2.. sec 3.. sec 4. it seems as though they're about my age..but yet the age gap seems so great. the sec 2s weren't even in bp when i graduated. it suddenly occurred to me..i've really grown old. 18 years old seemed to be so far away..something that'll probably happen when i'm close to 80. and those boys are very cute..as in..cute cute not good looking cute. ha. oh well..i miss the life in sec sch..when everything revolved around st john..Os..bpghs. then and now, i knew and know very well that's the place i wanna be, that's the best decision i made in my life that i couldnt be more right about. sitting down there in the canteen..watching the bunch of ill disciplined lethargic campers cheering the bp cheer at the top of their voices..it came back to me all over again. why i loved and still love bp so much.
then i was sms-ing tuan yeow..den like..i started to wonder..what is it that keeps making me go back for st john..even if no one's going back..even if there's nothing much to go back for..nothing much to do. is it really because of the so called passion and commitment? i doubt so. maybe i'm juz looking for something to show my worth. maybe i'm just looking for something i am unable to get in aj. maybe i'm just trying to remind myself that all is not lost, that life is still great. or maybe it's a combination of everything.
6 more months. 6 more months to freedom. to release. to living my life the way i want to. to getting away from loads of crap. to going back to what i always was and what i want. and before the 6 months come..guess i gotta work hard..or else i ain't going anywhere i want, ain't doing anything i want, ain't gonna be whatever i was and want.
ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
@ |12:52 pm|