Sunday, February 19, 2006

tears: a) drops of the clear salty liquid that is secreted by the lachrymal gland of the eye to lubricate the surface between the eyeball and eyelid and to wash away irritants.
b) profusion of this liquid spilling from the eyes and wetting the cheeks, especially as an expression of emotion.
c) act of weeping.


tears tell a story. tell many stories. stories of joy, hurt, pain, sorrow, disappointment and hope. but what happens when no amount of tears can tell the never ending story of life broken, smeared, distorted, strained and tainted by the vices of life. what happens when all you wish for is something to hold on to, something to count on, but all u get is the never ceasing waves of trauma hitting against you, throwing you off your feet again and again and again. and you wonder. what happened? why you again? will it ever stop? what are you supposed to do? how are u supposed to stand up again, only to be knocked off balance again? you feel like the tears you've shed all your life is enough to drown you. you wish you could just drown. everyday you feel obliged to do the things you don't wanna do. everyday you are forced to stand up on your feet only to be knocked off course. you wonder. is a peaceful life too much to ask for. you wonder. will you really come out of everything stronger than before. or are you actually weaker than before. you wonder. will these wounds ever heal. you wonder. as these thoughts blizzed through your mind, your vision blurred. it becomes more and more fogged. you are scared. afraid that perhaps there will come a day when you can't see where you're going anymore. when you can't see your goal anymore. when you just become blind and stucked. and be swept into those merciless waves, amidst the smirks and laughs of life. sometimes you really wish. you could drown in those tears. at least then, you still did not lose to life.

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ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
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