Sunday, January 01, 2006

yupp. it's officially 1st jan 2006. all the fuss about a new year..a better year ahead..and all the celebrations. but really..what's the cause? that there's a new beginning or whatever? crap. yeah it's a new year. so what? big deal. life goes on. i'm officially a j2 now. As this year. but so what. why do we really need to celebrate all these occasions and so on? i don't know. maybe because we want to find a reason to let go and do whatever we want and to celebrate. maybe because we are searching so hard for causes of celebration in our lives. maybe because we just want to feel special once in a while. perhaps because i'm in a family who never really gave a damn about all these occasions except chinese new year and even then the celebration was low key that i'm feeling like this. somehow i'm getting this hollow feeling inside me. like..indescribable. everything seems so surreal. guess i'm in one of those cranky moods again. i'm feeling anti social. i'm sick of my father's obsession over my mother's condition. i'm sick of my mother's condition. can't she just take her medicine properly and can't he just quit being so obsessed about her condition. well..fat hope. fat fat hope.
bah. got ocip outing tomorrow. and i'm feeling cranky. nice timing. bah! whether i like it or not..gotta be more enthu tomorrow and smile..laugh..play..talk cock..whatever. >_<

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