Wednesday, September 28, 2005

"sometimes it feels no one understands"
it's not true. because no one understands. no one sees. no one can tell how terrible i feel everyday. no one.
"if you don't say, how can u expect others to know?"
maybe.

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

Your Birthdate: August 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

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@ |6:42 pm|

Your Birthdate: August 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

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@ |6:40 pm|

Your Birthdate: August 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

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ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Man's journey in life consists of the constant and continual pursuit of facts, truth, and knowledge of the unknown. we want everything in our lives to be controlled as much as possible in order to feel secured. of course, as much and as hard as we try, we don't always find out what we want to. we cannot control what we cannot control. we develop things and technology to help and attempt to control the uncontrollable. in our life-long pursuit for truth, we are only interested in those that mean something to us. something that mattered. something that makes a difference in our lives. if that something does not matter, we do not bother nor care about it.
so to say, when you realize you no longer care about the truth that you have been searching for for so long nor the credibility of what is or had been told to you, none of it mattered to you anymore. none of it means anything to you anymore. none of it makes a difference anymore.

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