Tuesday, May 31, 2005

i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care.
tell me i don't care.
tell me it doesn't matter.
tell me i don't care.
it all went very well last friday.
whatever happened now.
whatever happened after sunday.
bah.
i don't care.
i don't.
but i just can't stop thinking about it now.
damn it.
just saw the sms from xu da. 'i'm xu da. sorry for not saying goodbye. i really have had a very good time in class 17. thank all of you, and goodbye! :)' i feel so damn bad. we knew he was living. nobody cared. nobody bothered to send him off. nobody bothered to prepare a farewell gift for him. he never did talk to us much. he never did interact with us much. but he's a nice guy. i've talked to him a couple of times before. asked him about his family, china, and his plans for the future. maybe because his english isn't fluent, u can't really make out what he's saying sometimes and the fact that he's so quiet, he's so contented with the way the class is treating him. maybe. maybe not. even if he showed it the class would probably be oblivious to it. i'ts no use crying over split milk. but why. why do we treat him like this? because he does not fit in? i don't know. makes me wonder. at the end of my 2 years in anderson junior college. will it be like this? maybe. maybe not. it's the same thing with ms sim. we dread her lessons everyday. and suddenly she just comes and tells us she's resigning. i felt so lost suddenly. even at her very last lesson, maybe she's the only one who really feels sad. apparently, no one in my class really cared much.

reason: we were too preoccupied with spa.

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