Saturday, April 30, 2005
maybe the reason why i don't know is, as kok wei says, i don't want to know. when he asked me 'u dunno or u dun wanna noe?', suddenly it feels all too familiar. it is the exact same question i always ask sandy..and i forgot who else. weird huh. hahaz..i don't wanna think about it but yet at the same time i keep thinking about it. and for this time..only alison and kok wei knows about it. hahaz..for some reason i only told the both of them. i didn't even tell sarah. had a bad day in school yesterday. everything just feels so bad. actually..it's true. perhaps i do know. i just don't want to know. which is why my answer is always i don't know. and..talking so little to alison yesterday just tells me one thing. alison is the one person out of so many i know who really really understands me so well that whatever i do or say..most of the time he knows almost exactly what i'm thinking or feeling. which is kinda irritating most of the time cause he ALWAYS teases me or talks nonsense. again, not for the first time, i'm so glad i knew him. he's probably gonna leave some stupid tag talking crap again when he reads this. but i guess as irritating as he gets..knowing that he knows me well makes me feel better. hahaz..
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Friday, April 29, 2005
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
maybe i got some diseas or something..been very tired nowadays..always tired..when i say i wanna sleep at 10+..i always end up sleeping at 11+..seee..cos of ppl who refuse to cooperate. haiz. den very sian..everyday very late reach home..den i juz wanna sleep..still got 1000 word bio essay..2 econs essay..chem tutorial..and chi hw due on fri..i'm buried underneath. hahaz..i dunno how am i going to finish the stupid bio essay..'advances in anti-ageing science: can we live beyond 100?'. point is im not interested to noe if we can live beyond 100. it doesn't bother me at all. oh yeah. cut my hair. think i look weird. ar whatever. cut also cut liao. today's calista's birthday..hahaz..didn't know what to buy so we treating her lunch on monday and the neoprint we gonna take. hmm..i'm very glad that i know calista..shi wei..hann yee and joanna. think i'm much happier in aj now because of them..and of cos the class. i mean..i think our class's pretty nice..even though got cliques and all that larz..hmm..
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
hahaz..i'm a mugger mugger mugger mugger mugger. i knew gunalan they all can never believe that i'm a mugger..cos i'm a ponner in sa who enjoys a 4 day week and pons lectures and tutorials whenever i can and they got to beg me to go school or go lessons or whatever. hahaz. hann yee was telling me gunalan's jaw literally dropped open. hahaha. don't know. just know that i got to finish my work..listen to lessons and all that crap. no matter how tired i am i will do my work. today's a freaking long day. i can't really stand it. everything just drags on and on and on..especially tutorials..almost fell asleep. and my pd tutor gave us a stupid primary school quiz 'About Me' to fill in. -_-". still thinking about it. i don't know what to do. i don't know if it's a yes or a no. or maybe i don't wanna know. hahaz..nonsense. baH. whatever.
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
boO!
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
argh. so fan. so fan. i don't know i don't know. or maybe i don't wanna know. and i'm sick of tired of being left out of everything that you all do. i'm sick of everyone knowing what's going on with everybody else except me. i'm sick of not knowing what you all are talking about. i'm sick of all this shit. stop telling me this doesn't exist or give me lame excuse that you people feel it's justified. it is not. i guess this problem will never be solved. because i can never get you people to even recognize this problem.
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
just took a look at elena's friendster..i saw caleb in sajc uniform..i saw jason..i saw ian. suddenly..i miss sajc all over again..oh man..as much as i like my class..i am getting on ok in ajc..it is just different. sa will always have a special place in my heart..sa is always what i love. slept through the entire day today..suffering from excessive lost of sleep. finished almost all my work yesterday. mug like siao. haiz.
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Friday, April 15, 2005
people. get a life. alright? just because a guy and a girl talk more doesn't mean there's anything happening. basically we do not like each other. alright? there's nothing going on. absolutely NOTHING.
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
well..what can i say? been very tired nowadays..finally the last weekday is coming. been waiting for this day. well..today's pe was fine..sorta nice..cos we didnt run much..ahaha. yay! den bio lab was as usual..borning and sian cos of sherilyn tan. can't stand her. insulting. duh. sarcatic. mean. boo. got chemistry prac oso. oh man. i've never been so stressed out doing 1 chemistry practical. don't know how to use the graduating flask den like..i did something den i got to restart the whole process of weighing the crystals..dissolving..shaking..all over again..den wash everything den fill burette den take sulphuric acid take potassium iodide blah blah blah blah. and i wan the tap!!!! argh. the clip's soooooooooooo inconvenient. haha sat gonna go mug with weilin! ahaha..well..i need to start catching up on all the crap that i missed in the first three months. mainly because aj's damn fast in chemistry and econs and also the fact that i slacked through the 3 months. hai. tired. gonna go sleep soon..today i kinda couldn't open my eyes in the morning on the bus. thank goodness i will always get to sit on the bus. otherwise i will die. can't grab some sleep. even though it's only 10 mins. think i'll go down sa next mon with kai lin..soccer match..sa vs ac..muz go!! hahaz..next weekend got s51 outing..think it's potluck at ian's house. yay! i missed them sooooooooo much!
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
hahaz..sch seems better now..even though i dun let off early often..in fact only 1 day in 5 days..but den life and lessons in aj is more filled and more occupied. that's why i didnt feel like time passes very slow the way it does back in sa. but still..i love sa. yeah anyway..tml got pe..sianz. 1.5hrs. nowadays everyday come home do hw do hw do hw. haven't been like coming home early for a long time. well..today i decided to go back to st john. to take it as my cca. halfway when travelling to some old folks' home on the bus..i alighted and rushed back to bp. hahaz..i dunno y at tt point in time suddenly i decided and i noe that i wanna go back to st john. now got to find some cca tt is on on fridays..hard.
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
alright..haven't been updating. just too tired. argh. sunday went to slack with celeste after the rain stopped. then monday and tuesday had the same old stuff of temporary lectures in aj. oh well. finally wore my aj uniform. ok. according to the stupid guang wu..i look uglier in my bp uniform than in aj uniform. so basically his point is joo yeow was lying about how i look in my bp uniform. hmph. actually also nothing much happened in school. just as bored as usual. doing the same stuff over and over again. oh well..i gonna do that for 2 years. hahaz..but life in aj is fine. though not as fun as in sa..it's fine. yyup. then today there's this talk on the alpha list programme or whatever. damn boring. fell asleep. cause half the time they were not saying constructive or stuff that are really related to the reason why they made us stay back and listen to them talk. tired..still must pia tutorials. argh..i haven't been doing work ever since i went to sa. which means..i haven't been doing work since..after Os? hahahaa..
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
hahaz. yay! today went out shopping for jeans with sarah. hahaz..yeah den i bought a pair of jeans larz. den today when i go out rite..i went to take the lift..den i hear got ringing sound..thought is the car at the carpark. den nvm. den got this girl beside mi she started running down the stairs..i thought she in a rush. den i continued waiting for the lift..den 1 lift at 11th floor the other coming down. so i took the lift down. den when i reached the void deck. the ringing sound became very loud. den everybody staring. den i realized it's the alarm in the lift. the sound changed le. hahaz..den a few mins later my father called mi cos he thought i got stuck in the lift. *pheW* heng not mi.
den juz now on the way home. I CAN'T STAND IT. i got in the lrt. i know the lrt seats are big cos they probably think singaporeans are getting fatter and fatter. BUT it is still meant for only 2 PEOPLE. so i was sitting down there..den the fren of this woman juz plopped down between us! the worse thing is she got damn long and wavy and fizzy hair that she DID NOT TIE UP. reminds mi of the terrifying hair of the girl in advanced course who always sits beside me and i ALWAYS check if she bunned up her hair. and den she started FLICKING HER HAIR. can't she be more considerate and realize that her hair is super disgusting? can't she at least tie it up or not move so much? NO! after making herself comfortable on the seat, she has to FLICK HER HAIR. for what reason i do not happen to know just that her hair tickles me and it's SMELLY. argh. for goodness sake.
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sa's orientation 2's theme song..hai~ sad song.
High - Lighthouse FamilyWhen you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
(hiigh... hii-iigh) x 4
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Cause we are gonna be (FRIENDS FOREVER!)
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love...
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Friday, April 01, 2005
come to think of it..last night really super drama. also don't know why we became like that. hahaz..today went to school..i didn't feel negative!! yay!! and i think i quite like my class..hahaz..the people are quite nice..and..don't know..i think my class is not bad larz..hahaz..den we went nyp to eat togther..19 people went..considering my class got 24 people..that's quite good..hahahz..den it's hann yee's birthday! but i realized it too late so didn't buy present for her..saw gloria early in the morning today..hahaz..she's still as cute as always. hmmz..today's the last day i'll be wearing my bp uniform. got to say goodbye to the maroon skirt i've worn for the past 4 years and say hello to the grey and blue uniform of ajc. hahaz..i think i look ugly in the aj uniform..wearing it on monday..and got to buy tie also. i am really an ajcian now.
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