Thursday, March 31, 2005

SAJC OG 20 ROCKS!
SAJC 05S51 ROCKS!
haiz..oh god..i went back to sa. for the orientation finale. to see everybody again. i saw xueyi poh jee they all..we hugged and hugged..i missed them so much. den i saw anna..we hugged like crazy..and we started tearing..and den i went to see alison and guna they all..den i started crying. i started crying and crying. den saw jieying adeline jooyeow. oh and benjamin too. he was soaked. den i started to find all of my classmates..den we kept hugging and hugging and we started crying all over again. kai lin was crying like hell. telling mi she wanna come back. i started crying so hard. so hard. i kept crying and crying. and den we gathered in a circle and for the first time. we cheered a cheer for our class. our class. 05s51. the class i believe i hated. we hugged..we promised to meet up next week..den we didnt wanna leave each other..kept holding back and hugging and crying all over again. sherelynn and yilin saw mi..they already red eyed and cried..den they say they feel like crying again..and we hugged. den i went over to find li xian and og20..den i was already red eyed and teary. den li xian started crying oso and said she missed us so much. oh man. it is juz a repeat of hugging and crying and not wanting to leave each other. oh man..i noe i love sa. i noe i love them. but i didnt noe this much. i looked at the banner of SAINTS. the one that had my thumbprint on it on the I. it has a part of all of us. the fun times i had with all of them. the finale night of the first orientation..when we all went mad and crazy. oh god. sajc.
suddenly i feel like the trouble i made to go to the class outing at east coast..going back cck..taking a cab tt cost mi $20 there and taking a cab tt cost mi $16.50 home is all worth it. suddenly i feel like everything i did in sa is all worth it. we ARE going to meet. og 20 and 05s51. og20 next weekend..we WILL meet. with li xian. 05s51 IS meeting. next week..after sch. we will. we so will. haiz. my bag will always hold the sajc collar pin. always. sajc rocks my world.
today is the first day..i feel happier. real quite happier in my class. starting to be optimistic about life in ajc. and den this happened. ha. as i said. i will learn to like ajc. i noe i will. but i oso noe tt no matter wat..i will never love aj. much less love ajc as much as i love bpghs and sajc. i will try to make the best out of my situation in ajc. but tt doesnt mean i will love aj. making the best out of things isnt loving wat u noe u dun and will never love. i feel like i shld never have gotten out of sa. but den again. all the while i noe i will. it is not a matter of moving on. of putting the past behind mi. of facing up to reality. i noe wat everybody says. but that's not the issue at all.
*once a saint..always a saint.* always.

the scientist - coldplay
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Its only science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

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ostensibly ephemerally tainted.
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