Thursday, February 10, 2005

ok i went back bp..didnt go sa for chinese new year celebration. it feels nice to see all of them again. it's the first time since we've graduated tt i saw so many ppl come back at one time.
well..today is a bad day. i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed. damn. i neevr wanted to go back malaysia anyway. and my sis didnt go back cos she's working. so i went to make my parents happy. den like..woke up at 5+..fine nvm. this is to avoid the jam. den like..reached my grandmother's house. i feel so uncomfortable out of place and strange. im not close to my cousins. small wonder. and anyway i feel damn sian. nothing to do. i finished reading the whole 'TIME', reading almost every single article. there was no one to talk to cos my closest cousin needs to work and isn't there. and it was damn freaking hot. and den my parents promised to leave at 12+ 1+. and den like i told them i need to meet ppl. den guess wat? they had lunch at 12+. fine. nvm. eat finish liao 1+..wanna go back..den my father say wait for my uncle. damn. wait until like wat shit time? den i said i need to meet ppl. den they ignored me. den after tt tell mi dun be rude. damn. dun they understand chinese? they always lie. shit. before i left talked to my 2 cousins a bit. den ending up leaving at like 2+ close to 3. den by the time reach custom. reaching 4 liao. DAMN IT. THERE IS A BLOODY FREAKING TRAFFIC JAM. IF WE HAD LEFT EARLIER, WE WOULD NOT BE CAUGHT IN THE FREAKING JAM. AND I WOULD HAVE MADE IT. and i got so damn freaking pissed. by the time i reach singapore, IT'S TOO LATE TO MEET. GREAT. DAMN GREAT. shit. i hate going back to malaysia. I FREAKING HATE IT. at least when i was young i got excuse by doing nothing or hanging around or sleeping or watever shit. den now i got nobody to talk to there, nothing to do. cant even sms cos i dun have autoroam and anyway it's expensive. and den my relatives there always very slow. always drag things. and i freaking hate it. did i say i hate going back to malaysia? yeah i do. cos i always have to wake up very early. and take the bus. and den try to get some of my relatives to come fetch us. and den when we reach there, eevryone is sleeping or juz woke up. and den whenever we wanna leave, we always got to wait for 1 of my uncles to drive us to custom or something or try to squeeze like 6 ppl into a car. it is ALWAYS lidat. i hate it. ok. i freaking hate it.

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