Monday, January 31, 2005

finally..i've returned to sch. hahaz..feels like i've had a long break after i pon sch last fri. hmmz..i wanted to pon chinese lesson today. but decided not to since im gonna pon chinese lesson on fri. and anyway..i wanna pon sch on thurs..wahaha..i hate thursdays. i really do. well anyway, today bio prac was not boring! wahaha..preparing slides kept mi occupied anyway. and today im feeling better after ranting on abt the sch. and i quarrelled with my parents last night. im pissed with them. well i still am. cos my mum came and talk to mi abt the same thing juz now. well watever. im not gonna listen. it's my life. tml is a long day..kinda packed..with 2.5hrs of physics. haahz..stanley ong super talk cock..always talk nonsense. haiz. today pe was alright..sorta lame but anyway it was ok..quite fun actually..hahaz. think fri weifang gonna come crash sa. yay!! finally! hahahaz..juz now met jessie..it's been a long time. she say she die die gonna stay in jj le. hahaz..not bad..at least she loves the sch so much.
and anyway..since 80-90% im not gonna stay in sajc..i've decided..to make cookies for my class and my OG!! hahaz..for my class..think i'll probably make for them 2 weeks from now..since it will be close to the release of results..since i figured after tt those who not gonna stay in sa (including mi) wun even bother to come to sch yeah? or maybe i'll give to them during valentine's day! yeah! den my OG..well..i hope there's an outing after the Os results or before tt or something..den i'll give to those who goes. yup. i probably wun see all of them again after i leave sa. well..i'll be lying if i say i wun even miss them a teeny weeny bit. but i'm not bonded with them or love them to such an extent tt i will stay in sa. yup.
feel so glad i've finished my physics tutorial. well..i'm gonna start on my maths later..got to do. i noe tml i wun even bother to touch them..hahaz..

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

ok. as u can see, i haven been updating. reason being i juz dun feel like it. i dunno. sometime i love sa. sometimes i juz dread going to sch. maybe it's cos of the distance, maybe it's cos i feel like i dun belong there, maybe it's cos of the fact tt there isnt really anyone im particularly shou with. yeah. watever. i pon sch today. it's a good decision. i slept till 1+ and han yee told mi today civics lasted for only 15mins cos of a super long assembly about animal abuse and chinese lesson was cancelled and physics lecture was total crap. today i sat down and thought abt the sch. thought abt if ever im gonna return after getting my results. sad to say, i realize tt i really wanna get my results soon and get out. i cant stand it anymore. the long travelling journey. the classmates tt are majority scholars and studious ppl who turns up 5-10mins early for lectures. the sucky timetable of 4.45 4.15 2.15 5.15 2.15. and ppl wonder y i dun wanna join a cca. cos i freaking wanna go home. everytime i wake up, walk to the bus stop, wait for the bus, board the bus, step into sch, go into lecture, go into tutorial, during breaks, during pe, i juz keep thinking abt going back home.

to tell the truth i freaking miss bp. i freaking miss all the ppl. i freaking hate travelling so far every single day. i even miss lot 1. i miss the familiar sight of white blouses and maroon skirts and white stripes at the pocket of shirts and blouses. i miss taking 300 to sch every morning. i miss seeing ppl i noe at cck interchange every morning. i miss the stink of the 402 cabin classroom. yes sa is nice. sa is fun. sa is enthu. but sa is not bp. even though the ppl are more enthu and watever than in bp, i love bp. and i realize now tt maybe..i wanna get into a sch with a lot of bpians. cos only then do i feel tt i belong. only then do i feel tt hey im not alone. only then do i not think of going home. for the first time in my life im dying to go home so much. i'm sick and tired of waking up at 5.30am every morning and reaching home 12 hrs or more later. yeah i noe i chose sa. and im not saying sa sucks, i dun hate sa. but im juz tired. carrying on like this for the past 4 days is taking its toll on mi. im tired. i didnt particularly love the weekends when i was still in bp. maybe cos there's st john on sat. but i dun feel particularly happy when weekends are approaching. but now i do. cos tts when i can take a break. shit. im whining abt all this when i chose it. but well. watever.

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

quote of the day: "Then you may as well not come."
yeah. i'm sure glad to hear that.

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Friday, January 07, 2005

hahaz..yup..haven been updating. 2nd day horz..we learnt mass dance..and played treasure hunt. hahaz not bad larz..quite fun..actually the most important thing is everyone is enthu. once we're enthu..everything is fun no matter how boring and stupid it actually is. hahaz..thought abt choosing between triple sci and bio chem econs. thought for a long time and decided on triple sci and see how is it first. den 3rd day..had wet games..actually oso not exactly very fun..but again..everyone enthu den of cos fun rite. hahaz. had mass dance too..learnt the indian dance. damn cute..hahaz..i like!!! and the song. the stupid darren kept singing and dancing. hahaz..yeah den we learnt the sch song oso. den after everything, even though i very tired..went mac to eat with the og. haahz..den the caleb damn funny..like little boy lidat..somemore his looks very boyish. hahaz..yeah den kinda reached home quite late..at like 9+.
den yesterday, was the last day. every jc orientation 5 days except us. but well, nvm. den the beginning of the day damn sian. like nothing to do. den after tt suddenly we noe we have to dance. den wah seh super sian diao. but nvm..learn lorz..yeah den we cheer and cheer and cheer like siao..the whole finale thing was very nice. everybody so enthu. hahaz..den after tt when the teachers left, they played music and songs. everybody got onto the track and became nuts. dancing, jumping, running and screamining around. it went on and on for goodness noes wat time, at least an hr i think. ahhahaz..but it was damn fun even though it was damn lame. everybody was super enthu. this is something i noe will never happen back in bp. with my class, with st john. and i noe i will never be so enthu back in bp. yeah den went home damn tired..zzzzz on the bus straightaway..when i woke up to alight my feet and legs aching, arms oso aching. but u noe, i'm starting to love sajc. hahaz.
yeah den today..damn sian..got chapel..den 2 hrs break..den after tt chem lecture and then maths lecture. shit complex numbers. hahaz. den stayed in sch till very late..cos they wanna have dinner den i oso dunno y we sit there. eventually i leave to meet joyce. i kinda miss her. haven been seeing her. den juz now was looking at my photos. and then i saw the photo mi and huiting took together. and i realize..i really really love huiting. and xin jie and syek yi and chin thin. and 402. and bp. and st john. i miss them so much. and then i went to write testimonial for huiting. hahaz..i dunno. i dunno whether next tues shld postpone the dental appointment to at night den i go sch or juz pon sch and say i got dental appointment. see how. see wat they gonna do on monday. i like my OG. kinda. but sometimes..i feeel so out of place. like really nobody i really belong with. if u get wat i mean. sajc is fun..but there are so few bpians sometimes i really feel very lost. haiz. nobody understands the feeling. as much as i like sajc, i'm not 100% comfortable here. it's hard. tts when i really miss huiting. somehow i noe how much better it'll make mi feel if maybe her/xinjie/syekyi/chintin/celeste or anyone is here with mi. i guess i may not stay in sa after my Os results afterall. well..eevrything still depends on my results and where they are going.
this is the theme song for our orientation saintierra.

Our Lives by The Calling
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
'Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?

'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
These are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

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Monday, January 03, 2005

ok..so today is my first day at sajc..feels weird being called a saint. too used to being called bpian. yup. so took 963 today..den saw shuyi and charles..they sat behind mi..den shuyi was like tapped mi on my shoulder and 'hello! hello! hello! u go sa ar?' hahaz..she so cute. yup den met anna amelia and frens at the bus stop..den we went into the sch..stood at the track for morning assembly yeah sort of..den after the prayer..we went to the hall..sorted out into our OGs den they introduced us the theme for this year. yup. saintierra or something. yeah den we wrote down our contact numbers and all tt. den collected money for orientation package..and played wacko..hahaz..sad to say..nobody can remember my name nor really noe how to pronounce it..which is weird..cos all my sec sch frens found it easy. yeah anyway..den after tt went back to the hall for the talk by the principal..den after tt got talk abt subject combi..den can ask questions..yeah den we sort of went for lunch..den came back..games. seriously, the games are damn lame..but well..orientation always plays lame games anyway. yeah den went for registration and stuff..den went back to the hall for video..the video was nice..hahaz..quite cute..i like. den we went home at like 3.20pm. yup. den there was this small booklet they made which was so sweet..with cheers..song..programme..places to go..bus services..canteen food and sort..so nice of them. realized there's quite a lot of RV ppl, nanhua ppl, RI ppl, and of cos the SA ppl..st margarets. sooooo few bpians. sigh.
den they told us tml muz bring extra set of clothes..and wear t shirt to sch. so far..i have quite a good impression of the sch ba..forgot to photocopy my prelim results slip..tml muz go bookshop photocopy..sianz..decided to choose maths econs chem bio..see how first lorz. yeah den xin jie called mi..she told mi abt ac..hahaz..say the guys there tall tall dark dark very shuai..den all those ppl keep speaking english..all cannot remember her name or cant pronounce oso..hahahaz..yeah den got 1 ACS guy dun even noe wat's a bimbo..a crescent girls' girl doesnt noe wat's act seh..sigh. hahaz den they paid like $25 for orientation..$2 for acjc badge..hahaha..to think we got our handbook for free. yeah apparently njc pjc acjc had to choose their subject combi by today..which i think is pretty dumb. hahahz..but well..watever.
i muz sleep early today..slept at like close to 3 last night..woke up at 5.30..i almost died today..hahahz..

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