Saturday, December 04, 2004

hmmz..now watching summer scent..slacked a lot today..watched liu xing yu..den went to give daniel my chem textbook..den went to meet sarah..den saw gloria. hahaz..gloria is such a sweet and cute girl..that's what i've always thought since p3..when i knew her. she's petite..and cute..sweet. hahahz..if i'm a guy..i'll surely fall in love with her. yup. then i went home..sis's already home..watched tv till now..still watching summer scent..haiz..missed the past 2 episodes..one cos i was too pissed and forgot abt it..the other cos i went to jay chou concert.
kang wei juz told mi there'll be no more chalet..juz a bbq at chevrons next thurs. sigh. damn it. juz when i was looking forward to it. read suxian's blog..hahaz..she didnt like mi..so sad..*soB*..well at least she thinks im alright..hahaz..den suddenly i thought about my frens..those around mi. chin thin. we were so so so so so close in sec 2..we almost never went anywhere without each other. but things changed. we almost never do talk anymore. sometimes i can't even stand her anymore. syek yi..ha..we're like on and off..we were so close..so far apart..so close..and ended up being so far apart..hahaz..my good fren? i guess. but not really. everytime ithink abt my sec sch life..i think abt the 2 of them and wat we've become and i juz get so sad. i guess it takes 2 hands to clap and i play a part in what's happened. we can never go back to how we were. cos i can't forget and dun make the effort to, juz like the way they dun make the effort to. we're separating anyway..well..make the most of the memories we have yeah..i will always remember those nice times. and joyce..well..she's my best best fren..but nowadays she's been too busy and i've been too busy..but in my heart..she'll always be the best. yup.
and one more person. soke yee. soke yee is really a very very nice, sweet, true and loyal friend. i think, to have met her in my sec sch life and be so close with her is such a good fortune. she never gets mad at mi and tolerate all the shit i give her and i really feel so guilty..juz tt i dun say anything. even though i always appear aloof and unbothered by the care and concern she showers mi..deep inside i feel it and i am touched and i appreciate everything. she is a very very good fren..who cares and is sincere from the bottom of her heart. i love her so much. she is the one who entertains mi everyday..bickers with mi everyday..makes mi feel like hey no matter wat she'll always be there..even though she irritates mi at times..and i keep flaring up at her..i really love her..i dun really mean it when i say i juz dun wanna get into a jc she is in. i guess i juz wan a break from bpians. sometimes..i juz wan a fresh start yeah..maybe i'll regret it but for now, i'll stick to wat i wan. even though i always scold her and so on..i really love her and i'll miss her all my life..yup..she remembers so many times we spent together..sigh..make mi sad only..hahaz..
and u noe..i guess i do love my class..402..regardless of how uncooperative..irritating..divided and so on..i guess..i'm so used to everything. the ppl in our class are juz so different..it varies from one extreme to the other..with ppl in the middle too..hahaz..i'll never ever ever forget this class. and as for 202..well..i dun love them a lot..but then again..they are the very ones who spent 2 whole years with and the very people i thought i couldnt bear to leave at the end of sec 2. they made my life colourful and i love them too.
and sandy..u noe..it's weird how our friendship began..cos of a rumour and we're suppposedly 'rivals'. and i didnt really like her and her frens at first..but somehow..we've become such good frens..and i really really like her a lot..her cheerfulness..her innocence at times and her playfulness..she makes mi happy. and she's really a very nice girl and i can't help but feel that the rumour and the whole saga was a blessing in disguise as i found such a great fren in her. yup.
oh and celeste..hahaz..*muacK*..i love celeste..nowadays i've become closer to her and i grew to like her so much..hahhaha..she's been the one going to sch with mi..going home from sch with mi..going out with mi..chatting with mi..gossiping with mi..hahaz..and ser chuan..he's the one who's always been there for mi when everyone else in the world isnt..the one who always supported mi..hahaz..maybe he IS my lost bro..there are so many ppl in this sch tt i cant bear to leave but i have to. cos everything comes to an end. and perhaps..this ending will be the nicest ending.

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