Saturday, December 25, 2004

yup..it's now christmas day..and wat i am i doing..online again. hahaz..baked cookies..and gave to feel..bake until i wanna die..first time bake so many at 1 time..hahaz..sheldon spending the day at camp..most of my frens going out..celeste go caroling..met her today..hahaz..gave mi earrings and cookies..so sweet of her. then..wat did i do..oh yeah..went to sandy (sis's fren) house..den now i'm home..sudddenly ar..im no longer hoping for certain ppl to be online..instead it's some unexpected ppl..hahaz..crap.

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Thursday, December 23, 2004

yeah..so i finally put on my braces. yeah. kinda pain..the front teeth. argh. yeah den..finally organized the whole 402 chalet..my sis's fren helped mi booked..haha but never tell my sis..cos she will scold mi..yeah den organized the bbq oso le..haiz..damn ma fan..damn fan oso..
christmas is coming..yet i've got nobody to spend christmas with..haiz..cos ppl are either spending it with their bf..or family..or church..or other frens. wah i damn sian..nvm..stay at home watch tv and self entertain lorz..hahaz..den sandy coming over to bake cookie..hahaha..reminds mi i got to bake oso..so may as well bake tml. and so..i'm posted to sajc. no excitement.
my sis changed..i dun feel like talking to her much anymore..i dun feel like going out with her anymore..her world seems to be revolving around her bf..whom i hate..cos he's a bastard..hahz..but well..it's her life..it's her decision.
yup..so i bought new bag..got new shoes..new clothes..now lack of skirt..yeah..haha.....

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

Last night i took a walk in the snow
Couples holding hands places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me?

I signed my letter that i sealed with a kiss
I sent it off and just said this
I know exactly what i want this year

Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby (baby baby)
I want someone to love me
And someone to hold
Maybe, maybe (maybe maybe)
He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all i want just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

Christmas Eve i just cant sleep
Wouldi be wrong for taking a peek?
'Cause i heard that u're coming to town
Santa can you hear me?

I really hope that your on your way
With something special
For me in your sleigh
Oh please make my wish come true

Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby (baby baby)
I want someone to love me
And someone to hold
Maybe maybe (maybe maybe)
We'll be all alone under the mistle toe

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all i want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time
Oh yea
Bring me a love i can call all mine
Oh yea
Cause i been so good so good this year
Oo
Can't be alone under the mistle toe
He's all i want in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all i want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

aaa
Oh santa
aaa
Can you hear me?
aaa
oo santa

Well he's all i want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year
Santa that's my only wish this year

hahaz..nice song..i like..heard on the radio..very cute..ahahz

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Friday, December 17, 2004

yup. i'm here. juz didnt feel like updating. yeah..back from 202 chalet..got many stuff happened..den yesterday plucked out another tooth. bah. tt stupid doctor. lousy. pluck so long..and pain. tt time the other doctor was much better..fast and not pain..sighs. update abt the chalet tml. yup.

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Friday, December 10, 2004

hmmz..yup..had my class bbq yesterday..becoming very lazy nowadays..sigh. so i went out to buy the satay sticks..den poke those stupid meat with the sticks. yup. poke until my fingernails all yellow.eeeek. yup den went to jurong east to meet them. ended up syek yi is the earliest. hahaz..hard to imagine. yup den we waited for chin thin..den went to chevrons. quite nice. but like not much things to do yeah..den they started the fire..which took a damn lot of time..den i went to bring desmond in. yeah..den started cooking..the chicken wings all get charred..hahahaz..den the hotdogs oso..well almost everything got charred. yup den some of them went to play arcade..i think 50 cents each game..which they say is damn cheap and i dunno since i dun go to arcades. yeah den after tt mi, soke yee, huiting, chin thin, syek yi, winghan and germaine here at different times sat down and started talking..den later zen, erni's bf, brought out fruits for us..hahaz..den those ppl came back from the arcade..den wan mei left, den liyana, wing han and jing wei..den soke yee and laiping..den jackson and pamela..den left only a few ppl..den we sat down there and talk..hahahz..den yishin talked abt his jobs..got 1 damn funny..go flats and check for cracks..hahahahah..everybody were like laughing and laughing.
den we left at around 9.40..yeah..oh erni left before us oso. the zen got to stay in the chalet all by himself..wahh damn sian one..den took 188..den made alison and yishin take lrt with mi..hahahz..ok larz..but they oso nice enough..hahaz..yup den reached home..watched the last of OC..den watched twelve kingdoms..den went to bathe..come out watch inuyasha. den talked to jiahan..hahaz..he told mi all abt fishing..and his class bbq..den talked to asmond..he really damn dumb..kena cheated into com team den get bullied by them..stupid..hahaz..den he told mi today is the start of the nco course..hahaz..so fast 1 year passed liao..still remmeber last year go nco course..dreading it like siao..hahaz..come to think of it..i really miss st john..hahaz..but i'll never go back there again.

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

ok. so i went to the dentist. got to pull out 2 teeth. pulled out one today. i feel so..empty. hahahah..yeah den pierced my ears..

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Saturday, December 04, 2004

hmmz..now watching summer scent..slacked a lot today..watched liu xing yu..den went to give daniel my chem textbook..den went to meet sarah..den saw gloria. hahaz..gloria is such a sweet and cute girl..that's what i've always thought since p3..when i knew her. she's petite..and cute..sweet. hahahz..if i'm a guy..i'll surely fall in love with her. yup. then i went home..sis's already home..watched tv till now..still watching summer scent..haiz..missed the past 2 episodes..one cos i was too pissed and forgot abt it..the other cos i went to jay chou concert.
kang wei juz told mi there'll be no more chalet..juz a bbq at chevrons next thurs. sigh. damn it. juz when i was looking forward to it. read suxian's blog..hahaz..she didnt like mi..so sad..*soB*..well at least she thinks im alright..hahaz..den suddenly i thought about my frens..those around mi. chin thin. we were so so so so so close in sec 2..we almost never went anywhere without each other. but things changed. we almost never do talk anymore. sometimes i can't even stand her anymore. syek yi..ha..we're like on and off..we were so close..so far apart..so close..and ended up being so far apart..hahaz..my good fren? i guess. but not really. everytime ithink abt my sec sch life..i think abt the 2 of them and wat we've become and i juz get so sad. i guess it takes 2 hands to clap and i play a part in what's happened. we can never go back to how we were. cos i can't forget and dun make the effort to, juz like the way they dun make the effort to. we're separating anyway..well..make the most of the memories we have yeah..i will always remember those nice times. and joyce..well..she's my best best fren..but nowadays she's been too busy and i've been too busy..but in my heart..she'll always be the best. yup.
and one more person. soke yee. soke yee is really a very very nice, sweet, true and loyal friend. i think, to have met her in my sec sch life and be so close with her is such a good fortune. she never gets mad at mi and tolerate all the shit i give her and i really feel so guilty..juz tt i dun say anything. even though i always appear aloof and unbothered by the care and concern she showers mi..deep inside i feel it and i am touched and i appreciate everything. she is a very very good fren..who cares and is sincere from the bottom of her heart. i love her so much. she is the one who entertains mi everyday..bickers with mi everyday..makes mi feel like hey no matter wat she'll always be there..even though she irritates mi at times..and i keep flaring up at her..i really love her..i dun really mean it when i say i juz dun wanna get into a jc she is in. i guess i juz wan a break from bpians. sometimes..i juz wan a fresh start yeah..maybe i'll regret it but for now, i'll stick to wat i wan. even though i always scold her and so on..i really love her and i'll miss her all my life..yup..she remembers so many times we spent together..sigh..make mi sad only..hahaz..
and u noe..i guess i do love my class..402..regardless of how uncooperative..irritating..divided and so on..i guess..i'm so used to everything. the ppl in our class are juz so different..it varies from one extreme to the other..with ppl in the middle too..hahaz..i'll never ever ever forget this class. and as for 202..well..i dun love them a lot..but then again..they are the very ones who spent 2 whole years with and the very people i thought i couldnt bear to leave at the end of sec 2. they made my life colourful and i love them too.
and sandy..u noe..it's weird how our friendship began..cos of a rumour and we're suppposedly 'rivals'. and i didnt really like her and her frens at first..but somehow..we've become such good frens..and i really really like her a lot..her cheerfulness..her innocence at times and her playfulness..she makes mi happy. and she's really a very nice girl and i can't help but feel that the rumour and the whole saga was a blessing in disguise as i found such a great fren in her. yup.
oh and celeste..hahaz..*muacK*..i love celeste..nowadays i've become closer to her and i grew to like her so much..hahhaha..she's been the one going to sch with mi..going home from sch with mi..going out with mi..chatting with mi..gossiping with mi..hahaz..and ser chuan..he's the one who's always been there for mi when everyone else in the world isnt..the one who always supported mi..hahaz..maybe he IS my lost bro..there are so many ppl in this sch tt i cant bear to leave but i have to. cos everything comes to an end. and perhaps..this ending will be the nicest ending.

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Friday, December 03, 2004

hahaz..let mi summarize yesterday..yesterday i went swimming with celeste and sam..hahahz..i cant really swim..i shall not elaborate why..cos..ppl will laugh at mi. dotx. hahaz..yeah den we started gossiping..talking..and so on..hahaz..so nice..den later went to cut hair with celeste and her sis..hahaz..ok lar..now the hair not bad..celeste looks very sweet now..cos of her fringe..yeah..the hairstyle she cut very nice..the kind i wan if i have long hair..but i wun have long hair. hahaz..den the hairdresser kept talking to mi..say exams over very shuang ar..den ask never find part time job ar..got try keeping long hair not..y not try..hahahz..very nice larz he..den tell mi next time come back and cut..he off on all mondays..hahaz..
yup den later i went home myself..cos she and her sis and the bf need to go somewhere else..oso good..i dun awnna reach home too late..yup..hahaz..i like celeste eh..very nice..cute..and..hmmmz..good hearted..hahaz. if i dun see her much next year..will miss her eh..all the times i went home with her..went sch with her..went out with her..hahaz..sighz.
den today was sianz..i slept the whole way thru..can feel the fats building up in my body..argh.

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Thursday, December 02, 2004

yup. anomaly. i like this word. it describes every single person. why? think abt it. maybe u'll find out why..if u cant..den ask me.

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