Sunday, November 14, 2004

as much as i didnt wanna go my cousin's funeral, cos i'm not close to him, i went. yup. woke up at 9+am and went over to jurong east..to send him off his last journey lorz. went there..my nephew's all grown up, tall, and slimmed down so much, unlike the super pui nephew i've seen last time. he's become quite handsome ar..hahaz. well..went there..and paid respects to him. when we had to walk around the coffin..see him for 1 last time..my first aunt started breaking down and crying and crying. oh man..it was heart wrenching..and his wife was becoming hysterical oso. and they juz started crying and crying. my cousin's little daughter too. i really felt damn sad. haiz. the daughter..who is only my one and only niece out of the so many nephews..saw her own father actually hung there. i dunno wat to say..guess she needs to go for counselling yeah..
then it started to rain..den we walked the coffin out den board the bus. then there, he was cremated. when the coffin was pushed into the..watever thing to cremate it, everybody started crying real bad..especially the daughter. i dunno..i started to think abt how things had been for my bro. i couldnt remember much abt the cremating process. i started to think abt if he hadn't died at such a young age and perhaps gotten married, there would've been his children to send him off. oh well.
then we went to the temple..then went back. it's weird having ppl call mi 'ah yi' (auntie). esp when im only a few years older. i dunno..today's trip to the funeral..i cried..but i dunno y. i felt so out of place there too. haiz. then came back..fell asleep..till now. sigh. didnt really study much today yeah..later do some amaths..history..physics and maybe chem if i have time..a little of everything i guess. today's already sunday. tues's hist. sigh.

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