Tuesday, November 30, 2004

hmmz..went out with celeste and samantha today. when i was with sam waiting for celeste..we saw dennis mok, bryce and their sec sch fren..yeah..den sam thought dennis was alan..hahahz..den cos she stared at him den he stared at her..den she say muz be the twin bro..den i look..hahaz..den i told her it IS the twin bro..hahahaz..easy to recognize..dunno y i've been able to since p3..hahaz..cos we same class ba. went to suntec and then orchard. hahaz..we insisted on buying a skirt for samantha when she only wanted to buy a sleeveless top. celeste was late. AGAIN. AS USUAL. well..what can i say right? hahaz..yup then at suntec..we didn't really see anything..saw vance though..dunno who was he with..yeah but well who cares anyway. then we went to orchard..then suxian and jiamin were there oso. at first didn't wanna meet them..cos i'll feel awkward yeah..but in the end we did anyway. hahaz..yup..suxian and jiamin very cute arz..den they keep holding hands..hahaz..so we went in search of a cheap top and skirt for samantha 'operation reforming samantha'. hahahaz..and we juz walked around..yup..then went to see lynn at the shop she works in..den we went into this fashion! hahahz..yup den we found the top and a skirt for samantha..and surprisingly she went to try on the skirt and eventually bought it too..woah..she's so nice to bully. lol. den we made her change into the new clothes to go back home. hahaha..we're sooooooo persuasive..lol.
den i came home quite tired arz..den juz now talk to steven online..hahaz..he very interesting..tts wat i realized..den come home..father told mi made appointment with dentist next tues..yup..gonna get braces..hahaz..sianz..gonna spend my whole jc life in braces..yeah well..but nvm..tml muz really get down to making cards for ppl..yeah..i wanna complete it by..thurs. yup. cos fri need to go out with joyce..hahaz..sat wanna slack..sianz..i really dun feel like watching my fair princess 3..cos i finished the whole thing..borrowed vcd from syek yi..den now show on sat and sun at 7pm..feel like watching but dun feel like it..dun like this part of the show..hahaz.

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so natalie's gone. somehow i feel some sort of emptiness inside. wondering how she is..wondering abt her. but i guess she's happier there. i miss her so much. *sigH* went to the library to get some books to read..yeah..there's this book about this genius..and her inability to fit into the society..it's quite funny..yeah. i keep looking at the neoprints mi and weini took with nat. *sigH*
went to jay chou's concert on sat night..yeah..that made mi fall in love with him..hahaz..considering i was never a fan of his.

在孩子的世界
快乐是一个简单的事
在我们的世界
简单是一个快乐的事
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Friday, November 26, 2004

after weeks and days of considering and being vexed and frustrated about the 1st 3 months..after talking to weifang celeste yeewen sokeyee peijun and anna..i finally decided to go to sa. yeah. im not very happy abt it actually..but well..at least a burden off my mind.
have i changed? in the short 1 month? i dunno..have i? maybe.

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

B:

Your Beauty liesin Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl nextdoor. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actuallyvery beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more thatlets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may comeand go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simplethings and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things mostconsider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendlyand probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-roundedindividual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug itoff because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some ThingsThat Represent You:

Element:Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Sign:Tauros Planet: Jupiter Hair Color:
Light Brown Eye Color:Brown

Quote:"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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Monday, November 22, 2004

now it's really holidays for me yeah..been going out everyday..sis also complain..hahaz..but i don't really care..i wanna go shop..must wait till sis free ar..hahaz..sat went out with sandy..then we go take neoprint. eeeeeeeeeee she make me do act cute actions..hahaha..but well..nvm larz..hahaz..den we go walk walk..talk talk..den yesterday went out with natalie and weini..well..cos natalie's going back..hahaz..think abt it den i sad. dunno..and she's not gonna be online..she's leaving this week yeah..so me weini and natalie took neoprints oso..heez..nice nice!! hahaz..den today went out with celeste..met some..people that shocked the hell out of me and celeste..hahaz. quote of the day: "was he good?" hahaha..yeah today on the bus with celeste going home..got this stupid ticko ah pek..wth keep squeezing nearer to celeste and mi. i already keep tutting liao..den stare at him..he wth pretend never hear never see. argh..den we move away..lucky he never try to move near..or i'll juz kick him hard. bastard. whack him.
hahahz..yup tomorrow going to watch shutter with khee onn and wen xiang..and jocelyn i think. going town!! hahaz..again..but well..nvm larz..got to buy some presents oso..so shun bian go there yeah. ppl told mi shutter's nice..well..i hope so..but most prob i dun dare go home only..hahaz..the only time i was not scared at all when i watched a horror movie was Ju-On 2. it was TOTAL CRAP. considering my timid nature..a horror movie that doesnt make me scared is a total failure. yup.
talking abt openhouse..thought about st john. i can't believe it but i really do miss st john. 4 years of trainings..crap..shit..hardship..unhappiness..happiness..memories have made me miss it so much. so thurs me and sarah are going back~! yup! been thinking a lot about school and st john and stuff. and anyway up till now i still don't know which jc to go..haiz..stucked..

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Friday, November 19, 2004

sigh. i'm here sitting in front of the computer revising chemistry..my very last paper. yeah..last night natalie told me she's leaving for thailand after all..she won't be staying anymore. i don't know what to say..i had been glad that she's leaving..but somehow i know that she doesn't exactly love the education system here..well anyway who does..so when she said she's staying, i'm kinda surprised..but now..she's leaving. i won't tell her to stay. i won't beg her to stay. i won't make her stay. maybe it's better for her to go back to thailand..maybe she'll be very much happier there. after all, that's her country. don't know..feel so weird now..i wanna go see her off at the airport..but i'll cry. hahaz..but i'm going anywhere. i didn't go to send thian leng off at the airport when he left for australia..cos i was having school. but now..it's holidays anyway..and i AM going. hahaz..i really like natalie a lot. it's weird how we became such good friends..but i really love her. hahaz..gonna miss her lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots. basically, just a lot. gonna take my paper in abt 2 hours' time..hahaz..i don't know..hope i can get an A1? haha...

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

yay!!!! today's amaths!! over!! so......after tml it's OVER!!!!!!! ahahahaahahaha..damn shuang..but now i already start to slack liao..no mood to study chemistry..hahaz..last night suddenly i freaked out over amaths..hahahz..but today amaths no good ar..die i damn scared i cant get A1..arghh...the relative velocity wrong..my total distance travelled like wrong lidat oso..they say it's 40m..i got 47.5m..sigh. arghhhhhhh
hahaz..yay tml last day..ahaaha..but paper ends at 5.45pm. sigh. well huiting xinjie syek yi chin thin going NIGHT SAFARI. well..i'm not going. firstly is of cos i cant reach home late..i need to reach home early yeah..and secondly i dun feel like going even though after 16 years 3 months and 3 days of living in singapore for my entire life i still haven't been there before..oh well who cares. yeah thirdly cos i surely feel very tired and all i want is to get home and sleep..and fourthly..i dun wanna go in sch uniform..hahaz..yup den sat/sun going out with weini..and monday going out with celeste..wed got PAE..thurs go back sch see the openhouse..shun bian pass things to asmond..den fri go out with sandy..hahaz..den sat and sun rest..den monday go 402 chalet~ hahaz..den come back on 1st dec..got to meet valerie one of these days to pass her present yeah..hahaz tts my programme so far..but muz make one day go buy present for joyce..and the ingredients to make the cake that she's been bugging mi to bake for her since the start of the year..and to make cookies..hahaz..so gonna give her like..4 presents total..hahaz..
yeah..den..wat else..oh yeah i wanna go shopping!!! heez..it's been soooooooooooo long since i last went yeah..hahaz..this morning at 4+am sandy sms mi..tell mi she saw meteor..most of the time i'm supposed to be sleeping so obviously i didnt see..but miraculously..i woke up and replied her..hahaz..i once saw meteor at the 302 chalet at sentosa last year..so nice..hahaz..to think i told my fren very nice very nice and my fren replied 'well actually im not tt interested' -_-" fine.
tml chemistry!!!
*countdown: 1 day!!!!

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

as much as i didnt wanna go my cousin's funeral, cos i'm not close to him, i went. yup. woke up at 9+am and went over to jurong east..to send him off his last journey lorz. went there..my nephew's all grown up, tall, and slimmed down so much, unlike the super pui nephew i've seen last time. he's become quite handsome ar..hahaz. well..went there..and paid respects to him. when we had to walk around the coffin..see him for 1 last time..my first aunt started breaking down and crying and crying. oh man..it was heart wrenching..and his wife was becoming hysterical oso. and they juz started crying and crying. my cousin's little daughter too. i really felt damn sad. haiz. the daughter..who is only my one and only niece out of the so many nephews..saw her own father actually hung there. i dunno wat to say..guess she needs to go for counselling yeah..
then it started to rain..den we walked the coffin out den board the bus. then there, he was cremated. when the coffin was pushed into the..watever thing to cremate it, everybody started crying real bad..especially the daughter. i dunno..i started to think abt how things had been for my bro. i couldnt remember much abt the cremating process. i started to think abt if he hadn't died at such a young age and perhaps gotten married, there would've been his children to send him off. oh well.
then we went to the temple..then went back. it's weird having ppl call mi 'ah yi' (auntie). esp when im only a few years older. i dunno..today's trip to the funeral..i cried..but i dunno y. i felt so out of place there too. haiz. then came back..fell asleep..till now. sigh. didnt really study much today yeah..later do some amaths..history..physics and maybe chem if i have time..a little of everything i guess. today's already sunday. tues's hist. sigh.

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Saturday, November 13, 2004

想起那天 原来是无雨无风 伴你抬头看着天
说你想飞 晴朗天气突然刮龙卷风

一刹那全世界都在改变 回忆起
我们俩快乐的从前 像一场梦

我的爱 你是片云 不要害怕
去寻找全新的自己 海阔天空 无拘无束新世界

也许你就要遇到 雷雨闪电的暴风圈
也许就要遇到 乌云密布会三天
冰得向冰霜 北国下雪天 停下脚步 想想我
也许你就要遇到 泪流不止的风沙天
也许以后天气预报 不会再有晴天 也许到最后 终点是蓝天

也许幻影 一刹那成为泡沫 勇敢追求
想爱的不能算错

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Friday, November 12, 2004

yeah. so much for being cambridge university. i didnt noe that the pupil diameter of ppl there decreases with decreasing light intensity. they set the question wrongly for the eye question. great. arghh..to think i was thinking there muz be some sort of logic behind tt dumb question. and MOE didnt even say anything. and now they say cambridge investigating and will take the NECESSARY ACTIONS. which is probably cancelling the question or something.

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

yup. today's deepavali. so called a holiday. more than horriday. oh well..yup i'm supposed to be studying..and i'm trying my best to. hahaz..just now woke up..then watched ai qing bai mian bao..i can't type chinese using my com. yeah..then watched the IIFA awards..hahaz..so nice. those bollywood stars..wahhh..so pretty..much prettier than those in hollywood..beautiful. hahaz..den got this guy..saif ali khan. so handsome!!! hahaz..i like indian music and dance..really very nice..and it's hard to master. then watch those bollywood movies..then they sing sing sing dance dance dance..actually really very nice eh. hahaah..nice larz..but slack and slack. till now decided cannot slack anymore must at least do some physics..then later in the night study history lorz. it's always easier to study humanities at night. hahaz..dunno y. actually i oso dun wanna think of bio liao le. even though like..it's important.
then yesterday zhong qin was saying dun take bio at As..cos it's damn hard. well..but if i dun take bio like wat else can i take? i can't even cope physics at Os..let alone at As..i have no interest in computing. so basically i'm left with no choices. yup. and cos i dun breathe, eat, drink, sleep, dream maths. so i can't take f maths too. not that i want to anyway. oh man..actually i really wanna go arts..but point is..hard to do well. and really..up till now..i still dunno wat jc i wanna go for 1st 3 months. suddenly it's become so important. argh. guess i'll have to wait till all of my papers are over..

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Slow down, you crazy child.
You're so ambitious for a juvenile.
But then if you're so smart, tell me why are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire? What's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out.
You got so much to do and only so many hours in a day.

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through.
When will you realize Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine.
You can't be everything you wanna be before your time,
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight.
Too bad, but it's the life you lead.
You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need.
Though you can see when you're wrong,
You know, you can't always see when you're right.

You've got your passion. You've got your pride.
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true.
When will you realize Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child.
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while.
It's all right you can afford to lose a day or two.
When will you realize Vienna waits for you?

But you that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can just can get old.
You gonna kick off before you even get halfway through.
Why don't you realize Vienna waits for you?
When will you realize Vienna waits for you?

nice song..i love this song..hahaz..

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haiz..the bio paper..was bad. the mcq was pretty easy i would say..finished it in like 15mins..hahaz..but the paper 2 was bad. like..what we learnt was..the less the light intensity, the bigger the diameter of the pupil. but like..come out the question..the further the person from the light source..the smaller the diameter of the pupil. i mean..distance affects the light intensity isnt it? so..the question is wrong? cannot be. it can't be that cambridge is wrong de lorz. but up till now i still dunno why lidat. sigh. den other questions..a lot i oso can't do. for the first time in my life..not enough time for bio paper..hahaz. to think i was counting on my bio. oh well..but huiting was kinda agitated about the thing. i don't really have any reaction. well..that's the way it is..so..what more can be done. right? but i can understand larz..she kinda 'needs' the A1.
well..i need it too. sigh. but well..time to study for my history and physics and chemistry ba. shouldn't have studied so much for bio..come out either common sense stuff..or stuff that we cannot learn de. so we went to eat. yup..then went to buy shower foam and shampoo..then met siong..hahaz..he looks the same ba..i didn't know tml's deepavali..thought it's next mon..so actually next mon's hari raya. hahaz..
then come home..parents tell me my cousin committed suicide. hung himself. sigh. a few months ago uncle stroke. then a few weeks ago cousin's husband admitted to hospital..almost died. now this.

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heez..today's bio paper..i'm still studying..actually i'm damned scared..but i still go online..dunno why..maybe to distract myself..suddenly i'm thinking..what if i really flop my Os..hahaz..i'll cry i think..sigh. better don't think so much yeah..i can't bring myself to memorize all this shit..i can't memorize everything..so i'll just study the way i've always been studying bio yeah..hahaz..
sighs..i don't know what to say when i look at sandy..she's making me bu fang xin oso..hahz.
*patiently wait to hear the words you'll never say*

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Monday, November 08, 2004

yup..today's emaths paper 2..it was ok..well..i was less careless than i was in paper 1..which is good. hahaz..hmmmz..went to mac with huiting sharan xinjie and syek yi after that..den we ate..den so qiao..met lynn..then met celestine oso..den we went home together. yup. then we arranged to go bpcc study..hahaz..den we went there..ended up getting hungry and bored..went to lrt station buy food..den sit there eat..cos haryana and hazirah fasting..den we dun wan be so mean and inconsiderate eat and drink in front of them..den we started chatting.
hmmz..i really like celeste..very nice..sweet..noe how to think and cute girl. can spend like the whole day chatting with her..den we talk..gossip. hahaz..got to pia bio..cannot slack anymore..this is really the last round..the last stretch. triple sci, hist and amaths paper 2. MUST do well. hahaz..though i'm sceptical about my results..must be more positive sometimes yeah? forgot who..always tell mi to be optimistic..i think it's siong. hahaz..talking about siong..he really a very nice guy..very good tempered..hahaz..well..must get back to study..after i go bathe..which is..a few mins from now..yup..

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Saturday, November 06, 2004

yeah. just when i thought i'm getting over it. just when i thought it's going away. just when i thought i don't care anymore. it's been 4 5 days. actually day by day..i can feel the distance increasing. but somehow i still remain indifferent. until just now. when i saw something that i don't feel good seeing. perhaps i'm being oversensitive. perhaps i'm being stupid. perhaps i'm being silly. but i just feel bad inside. like..haiz. i'm feeling damn down now. damn. i better go study bio.
*watching the falling meteor shine in the night sky as it burns into nothingness.*//

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ok..so..almost half of my papers are over..i'm beginning to panic..hahaz..like..ss wasn't good..i didn't do my essay well..i noe..dun ask y..hahaz..yeah den english..well..i never had confidence in the first place..den like..ms lee noe i did tt topic her face change..i oso noe wat she thinking..and from wat i recall..i didn't do like woah very well lidat..den my chinese was total crap..the compo sucked..cos the topic has a problem..the problem is tt the topic has no problem..well if u get wat i mean ba. den..emaths i already careless quite a few marks gone..amaths oso..i dunno y i couldnt do question 1..oh well..forget it it's over..and lit..well..i hope for the best..hahaz..mon's emaths paper 2..i must do very well..hahaz..and bio..well..i'm gonna pia bio le..start to pia bio..cos bio is very very important to me..very very. hahaz..
hmm..i dunno..i really very scared Os..i think when get back my results my heart will stop..hahahz..and like..duno..very stressed lorz..ppl always say no i didnt do well..den come back results so good..wah super sian..sigh. wish mi luck huh..i really need it..a lot. hahaz..
oh yeah and tt yloon kinda pissed me off..i've never really did like him..juz tt i didnt say anything to him den when he ask mi stuff i answer help him lidat..but yesterday he pissed mi off..damn it shit him.
how to type chinese words huh..i wanna type some stuff..but like..dun have the software to..hahaz..well..nvm den..

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