Sunday, September 26, 2004

she's broken inside. she's crying and crying nonstop. he doesnt give a damn. he doesnt understand. he doesnt feel anything. he doesnt noe a shit. she doesnt noe wat to do anymore..all the things she thought she knew's gone. void. empty.

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Saturday, September 25, 2004

u know..i feel so sucky. just now went to causeway point..they celebrated my birthday for me..yeah its late by 1 month 10 days..but it's ok. then they gave me this book..nice..yeah..i'm happy. but..am i really..hahaz..i dunno..i've been in a daze the whole day..or just hiding the fact that i don't feel great inside. i wanna go out. i wanna go out tml. haiz. must get someone to decorate this blog for me..weini!! hahaz..she promised me before..but must wait till her examz end ar..which is like 13th oct. hahaz..sianz. there's only one person i can tell everything to. joyce. and i haven't been updating in my diary..as in the real life one. haiz. maybe tomorrow.

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

Shewants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...
She's lost inside, lost inside...

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Friday, September 24, 2004

hahaz..been wanting to stop writing in opendiary..too..stupid. hahaz..yeah anyway..cos of natalie den i came here..yea..i juz wanna say..im pissed.hahaz..

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yeah..i'm in sch now..in the computer lab..for literature..wah..if mr osgodby knows i'm doing this he'll kill me for sure. yeah. eyes are puffy now..sianz..woke up like that. and i woke up late too..sigh. must save money to return sis money..i feel so bad owing her so much money then never buy anything for her..she's always the one buying stuff for me..clothes..food..nice stuff..almost everything. sigh. she may have a bad temper..unreasonable..rude..sarcastic and so on..but she really dotes on me a lot..yeah..i know that. hahaz..yesterday went orchard..suddenly i feel like shopping!! i wanna buy clothes!! hahaz..end of year liao..can buy soon..say buy for new year..hahaz..yay..
haiz..this is the only place i can write almost anything online. cos so long i dun give ppl this html..most probably people who knows me won't know. haiz. last night i cried. and cried and cried and cried.

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